I wonder if I’ll ever stop finding it so funny that I’m never the first person to see any of these diary-like videos 🤔😆

Speaking of catching up on myself, I realized a few days ago that I hadn’t bought my toys out for a while because the last time I had it just didn’t work for me, and that rarely happens 🤨

Anyway, once I started thinking about it and then taking the thought pattern further which is what usually happens inside my mind, given I’m both a Philosopher and Storyteller and well, just a little bit mad to boot, my thoughts obviously resulted in me bringing out my favorite toys 😝🤣

But this one ⬆️ wouldn’t turn on. I honestly thought I had changed the batteries, so was really confused as to why it wouldn’t turn on, but I wasn’t about to stop what I was doing to go and get fresh batteries 😝

I’m pretty bloody happy that I knew not to stop and instead just used it without vibration for two reasons …. I don’t have any AAA batteries, which is what it needs, and …

I had one of the best, most intense out of this world orgasms I’ve had in a very long time. Usually I have to cut them short because of how much I entire body reacts to an orgasm of that level. The ultimate intense pleasure can actually led to a flare up of pain to accommodate how much I spasm 😅

I would seriously make a killing on only fans 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Never going to happen of course 😝

As it stands right here in this moment at 9:46 pm on Friday the 10th of February 2023, given how I feel mentally, emotionally and physically, I truly do just want to make it to the end of this degree as well as I possibly can, and my amazing wonderful new tutor/adhd coach and all round great support in general has helped me see things regarding the rest of my degree so I’m feeling slightly better. More ok regarding the overall grade as long as it’s a pass, so that’s something..

But once I’m done, I honestly pray I have my home until then, but even if I do, by the end of my second trimester it will will be the start of November so it will be interesting to see what happens down the track, but right now, all I keep thinking about is how I just want to by a van or preferably if I am lucky and get a great deal, a camper van so I can just be free.

I really feel like I need to go somewhere where I can literally just focus on breathing and meditating 🧘‍♀️

There are still many more degrees I want to get but more than anything in the world now I want to learn how to stay calm.

I have basically been in flight or fight mode for days now. But I am focusing on knowing that I can do this. Now I’m going to keep watching my video which I paused to write this 😅

9:56 pm