I watched one of the videos twice back to back. Still not totally sure how much I have taken in. I am now onto the next part.

Today has shown me that I rely on my phone far more than I could have possibly imagined before turning it off last night, resulting in the best sleep ever, *side note: I am having the most beautiful, loving, high vibrating connected at oneness dreams which are far nicer than the world as it is now, which is probably why I am finally at the place I needed to get to, and now thankfully also from.my therapists full support to give up trying to have a perfect routine. I don’t work for a reason. Severe chronic pain, fatigue, and all of the other health (3D human self 🙄) bullshit I deal with daily, its really hard to stick to a routine. Yet I do it to myself constantly and then beat myself up nonstop for failing at everything I do. Which is bananas in it’s own right, given I quit a severe ice addiction, making over matter after asking Google to explain exactly what it was doing to me and every single I could to quit without any outside help whatsoever. Yet, boy, do I feel like im totally useless sometimes..

I just got lost in my own thoughts there for a second 😅 All part of my charm right readers 😆

The title has pulled me back. I am clearly not useless because the first few weeks of notes that I do have, both detailed hand written notes with screenshot video slide pictures, since the pdf with the video slides together are in black and white and six slides to a page lol 🤓

I need to keep reminding myself of what I am achieving. What I have achieved so far. That I have had a lovely day, and the only reason anxiety is around me, is because I can still hear the quietest voice still reminding me of what I still have to do….

But I am working on being proud of myself for all that I have achieved since I started my journey to become the best version of me that I can be. Just turns out, there’s no final destination. I believe we will keep learning and growing and evolving until we die.

Ahh well this was a nice little break, but, since I’m having a bad bladder day today, which now that I think about it, is obviously adding to being a bit slower, I need to go pee and get back to statistics. Bladder flare ups suck! You basically spend the majority of the day on the toilet trying to convince your bladder it’s empty 🤦‍♀️😆

5:43 pm