I came extremely close to calling the mental health triage at the local hospital but knew I was in such a severe state that there would be a good chance they would want to admit me to ensure I’m not a danger to myself. It’s that bad now 😢

This will be the first time I submit an assignment that I know is terrible. I don’t know how I ended up here. I was doing so well and so excited about this assignment but just feel like once again I failed myself.

I have cried so much today that in the end I just emailed the unit chair and let her know exactly what is going on and that I know that whatever I submit will be rubbish because I simply can’t stop crying whenever I try to work on it due to overwhelm and not understanding how I ended up here.

But I’m going to bed. I don’t care anymore. This trimester and everything that has happened over the past couple of months has broken me. All I really want to do now is check myself into a psych ward and take a break from reality for a while. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep holding myself together when I feel this broken inside 😭