I don’t know how I’m supposed to keep going like this, in so much pain and exhaustion, feeling stupid, always running behind and alone.
I feel so sad. Like how is this happening?!? All I’ve ever wanted was to just fall asleep and never have up. It would make no difference to this planet or anyone on it. Yet, my friend was so lobed and wanted by so many people.
Why he is gone and I’m still here?? I don’t know why I keep trying. I’ve been trying whole life. I still feel as unwanted, unneeded and unloved as before.
I miss you Randy. I wish I could come join you 😭
Day 287: 12th October 2022 | I miss my friend so much 😭