I know why everything is so much harder. Why I continually sink into the sadness. I have been so completely broken for so long now now that it’s obviously going to take a long time to heal. Everything is making me cry. Most of time I’m ok but then there are days like today that are filled with sadness, self doubt, wishing I had someone to hug. Or more truthfully, wishing the one I love was here to hug.
Me and Boss are in my room is the semi darkness on my bed. I managed to hang the rest of my washing out so at least that’s something.
I know I have pages of note that I am still yet to add to my assignment. From the brief glance over them before the tears finally overcame me, I think I can use them. But the idea of trying to go make myself do that, given how I’m currently feeling, is too much. Grant just video called and I couldn’t even answer it 😔