Making my last video definitely helped me, like it usually does, which is good.

After I uploaded it, I went back to working on some of the weeks one content again and was happy with what I got done. I then spent an hour and 45 minutes talking to Randy on a video chat. We always learn so much from each other. We were in a lot of the same philosophy classes together. Though he finished his entire degree in two years, unlike me who’s taking my time.

I am very happy to have finally found the name of the physicist I remembered from back when my Spiritual Awakening was first taking place, after losing it for the past too many years. I can never remember how to pronounce his name which makes it impossible to look for, but thankfully I have it now. I sent the first link that came up on YouTube to Randy. I can’t remember what I’ve already seen or not, so I’m going to start on that link after I’ve done some more uni work. Link … https://youtu.be/0NbBjNiw4tk

I am really proud of how fast I am able to pull myself out of these negative thought patterns lately. The deep shift that has taken place, is really helping me. I obviously know that I am still going to have down moments, and that shit can go wrong, but, I feel so much more equipped to handle those times.

And yeah, I am going to keep making videos in all different states of mind on this channel. As I’ve said, this literally is an online diary for me, since sharing helps me in ways I can’t truthfully explain. It’s not that I can’t edit or make myself look perfect or whatever, I make these videos the way I do for a reason. It’s what helps me. Just like uploading them and watching them once, they are live helps me more than watching them first. It’s just who I am and this process works.

The content on my professional website, once it is up and running, will be nothing like this channel. That one requires a lot of work, hence I haven’t started it yet. I need to create a lot of different content before I can make the website live because I am not going to make it live for one video. That just seems silly.

But I understand this channel may not be for everyone, and that’s ok. I have always said, those who are meant to find it will.