I am so sick of anxiety. Of feeling like I’m okay, and then it hits me out of nowhere. Though, I guess it is more my ego telling me I am failing again because I am not prepared for my first class tomorrow.

But I am trying to focus on the fact that I am only doing one unit at a time and that I can do this, even though right now I just want to curl up in bed and pretend the world doesn’t exist. But I know that won’t help me, so I will do what I can today and just work hard from now on.

Thankfully my car window is fixed. That cost $176 on top of the $120 it cost to fill my car with petrol. But my campus is over an hour away in each direction, so I had to fill it. I also remembered to get some food that I can take to campus with me, so that’s good.

I am feeling better since making this video and writing this out. Sharing everything I think and feel really does help me in ways I can’t even explain.

Thank you to all of you, who support me, watch my videos and comment. You have no idea just how much it truly means to me.

Oh, and following on from this morning’s video, I have picked up my weed box.