I keep getting hit with cold air every few seconds. Very annoying but at least the gap isn’t too big, so I’m grateful for that.
On a separate note, my ego is very much driving me crazy today. I am so pissed at myself for not just asking the bloody question that I wanted to yesterday.
So, now a bunch of unanswered questions are going around and around in my mind and it is taking all of my self control to let it go instead of doing what I know I absolutely would have in the past.
Talk about doing your own head in! Thankfully though I am in such a great place in life that I am able to rise above letting this totally drive me insane.
My biggest lesson in all of this is, though, that I don’t even feel comfortable writing about what I think is going on, and again, I could very well be imagining things, but since I live my life based on the philosophy that I only do things I’m happy to share, there’s clearly a more significant lesson at play.
Though on saying that, I am becoming really sick of the fact that some of my male friends haven’t been completely truthful with their partners regarding their friendship with me. I’m a flirty person by nature, it doesn’t mean that I hit on everyone, because I don’t. I’m not even interested in dating or casual sex anymore so I’m definitely not a threat to anyone.
Actually, on saying that, I don’t feel bad or guilty that I’m a much more carefree person than most. Think everyone who saw my shower video before YouTube took it down can agree on that 😂
I seriously love this website. Simply by writing this all out in a public online diary sort of way always makes me feel so much better!! And it brings me straight back into the now and gets me out of my head.
In the year and a half this website has been open, I have created 411 pages of stories 😁