The more I think about it, the more likely I think there is a very real chance that I may may end up living in my car for awhile.
There are so many news articles just showing up on my google news feed about how many people are living in their cars or tents in Australia. There are so many people all needing homes.
I have tried to figure out what will happen to my pension if I stop having a permanent address, since living in your car, literally means you are homeless, but I can’t figure it out online. I already have to call them anyway, so I guess I will just ask. Maybe I can use someone else’s address if it comes down to it.
I don’t know why I feel like I could end up homeless, but it also wouldn’t surprise me. So, if nothing else, at least it won’t come as a shock if that’s what happens..
I have decided though that I need to go through absolutely every single thing I own, including all the stuff in storage in the shed, and get rid of absolutely everything I can. I need to completely gut what I own, so that when the time comes when I have to move, at least that will all be sorted.
I heard back from my UK friend but she wants to live alone and really, I know that I need to as well.
I’ll see what vegetables I can plant that hopefully don’t take too long to grow, so that I can at least use my vegetable garden and have some stuff to use. I have no clue about how or if you can keep stuff fresher for longer but even just growing what seeds I’ve got is something.
So, I am going to focus on what I can do in the meantime to prepare myself as best as I can for whatever is coming my way.
I will be continuing to wake up Rachel for at least the next week I believe. But starting tomorrow, I am going to stay up like I had always planned too. My shed is covered in rat droppings but it’s not the end of the world. I need to bring everything out and sort through it all, much better than I have in the past. Thankfully, I kept most of the moving boxes from when I moved here, which I’m glad about.
I need to stay positive. To focus on the good and all the things I can do to help myself. I can do this. I know I can. I don’t have the giant tattoo on my arm saying “everything happens for the sake of your higher self” just because it looks cool. It’s because I know this. I just sometimes need the reminder. I spent most of today in bed sleeping and the other half just lying down after making and watching my video back. I haven’t even started watching the episode of the Flight Attendant as yet, since I thought it would be interesting to go back to the beginning of my blog and read myy earlier posts. So I read the three from December 2020 and all of January 2021.
It was just after this that I opened google on my phone and saw the multiple articles about the homelessness going on in Australia right now. Promoting me to write this blog. I am grateful that I can write out my thoughts and feelings like this when I need to.
It is currently 8:14pm. I am going to make some Marmite on toast and watch the episode that has been paused on my computer and tv for the past couple of hours now. Then sleep.
I know I am lucky and looked after and am so incredibly grateful for all that I have in my life. This is what I am going to focus on.
Good night everyone.