I don’t usually watch my videos back straight away but today I did.

I tried to do some work stuff but didn’t have it in me.

So, instead I vaped some weed, watched the video and am now about to watch the latest episode of the Flight Attendant.

I am also holding onto how much I appreciate everything that I have currently got. I have food, shelter, heat, tv, binge, Boss, weed, and everything else.

But I still feel sad and that’s ok. I am human after all. I still have to deal with my emotions, and right now, I am not my normal bubbly self, but that’s ok.

So, like I said in the last video, I am just going with the flow as best as I can and reminding myself of how far I have come. I have been in far worse situations than this and I came out stronger.

I know I’m ok even though I still feel sad and flat.