Day 96: 4th April 2022 | Part 3 | I’m up to date with my videos πŸ˜†


My bath vid has over 603 views in less than 24 hours πŸ˜‚ It’s been online for 23 hours at the time of posting this πŸ˜†

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I’m happy with all of my videos. I love making them and sharing them and watching them back after they have been online for a number of hours or sometimes a whole day and night before I see them!🀣

It makes it so much more exciting πŸ™Œ πŸ˜„

The oil does seem to be working and I think will help me manage my pain levels throughout the day, but as it stands, in days today when my pain levels increase to the level they did this evening, while I was on the work online zoom call, I am definitely going to keep vaping in the evening. I’m not sure why I was kidding myself.

Or maybe I just really need to accept that I am ok to vape. I am not doing anything wrong. Every one of my doctors know I am at uni and what I want to achieve, yet all agree with and support the use of marijuana. Both day and night. I am already choosing not to vape during the day for school and that’s enough.

I think I’ve decided, at least for now, that I am going to keep my tv workable for evenings. I realised, just yesterday actually, that throughout my life, the tv has always been a sort of comfort to me. I know that may sound sad, but it’s the truth. And now that I think about it, it probably is for a lot of people. I spend most of my time alone.

I have realised in this moment what I’ve been doing wrong πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ Whenever I make something seem like a job or chore, which I’ve literally just realised I’ve subconsciously done to myself about uni, it makes it so much harder to actually do! I chose to go to university. It is not a chore at all. I love what I learn. I just can’t make my entire life about it or I end up going the completely other way and self sabotaging πŸ˜…

Or maybe I just really need to accept that I am ok to vape. I am not doing anything wrong. Every one of my doctors know I am at uni and what I want to achieve, yet all agree with and support the use of marijuana. Both day and night. I am already choosing not to vape during the day for school and that’s enough.


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