I am in so much pain ๐Ÿ˜ซ


The place where the biopsy was, hurts so bad. I have cleaned it and put betadine on it with a new plaster. But seriously it fkn hurts. And on top of pain it also stings and appears to be a little swollen. I have ice pack on it now. Held next to my leg by my teddy bear ๐Ÿงธ lol ๐Ÿ˜†

Manly is my teddybears name
Diesel and Boss

I thought I needed to vacuum a lot before with just Boss. I’m honestly not sure if it’s even possible to keep a floor clean with two big dogs running around ๐Ÿค” ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

I should probably clarify that Nichele and Pedro are really just taking my ’emergency weed’ to theirs to mostly just store for me. I’ve just said if they want a little, especially if she’s is a lot of pain, she can have some of it.

Oh my fkn god!!!! I just moved my sore leg badly and fuck did it hurt ๐Ÿ˜ซ both boys are asleep next to me and it’s so quiet I can hear them breathing and the leaves movings. Just quiet street with nothing going on.

I was talking to Ashley and that’s when everything from my actual appointments started coming back to me. Though she was the one who suggested the ice pack ๐Ÿ˜…

I’m not sure where I am when someone points out something extremely obvious like this. I can remember for others, but me?. Who knows ..

Ok so Diesel is definitely cuddler lol he’s stretched out next to me. ..

We are up now. Few minutes later. Ice pack melted so I need another one as it really does hurt. Let’s just pray that it’s fine and this is the only thing that I need to deal with ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜…

But honestly, something has switched inside of me, and I just know I can get through anything. I feel like me. I feel free. My true self. And that’s awesome. I am actually excited for what the future brings. I feel happy. Like real true genuine happiness. It’s such a wonderful feeling.

Now I’m going to figure out what to do for dinner. TIME: 7:04PM


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